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There's a thrill to being in front of camera or a microphone. TV and Radio stars live for it, that rush of adrenaline as the red light goes on and thousands see what they do and hear what they say. A group of guys in Orlando, Florida know that feeling only too well, they are online 24/7 in front of twenty four cameras and eight microphones. CollegeBoysLive broadcasts every moment of their day - when they are asleep, when they are awake, and most notably when they are having sex. With their recently upgraded webcam technology you can watch a non stop stream of pictures, that's even suitable for people using dial-up internet access or relatively slow modems.

We've been to visit CollegeBoysLive once again to find out how the webcam site has changed over the past year or two, and to meet some of the new guys who are in front of the cams. Zac Adams is the founder of CollegeBoysLive and is now celebrating five years of being on the net.

Zac: Well it all started a few years ago when I came out. I put up a couple of pictures of me, on a personal webpage, and then I added a chat that I found on somebody else's site, and then a webcam and before I knew it I had a load of people coming in everyday chatting away. The webcam became 4 or 5 webcams watching me all day, and it grew and grew, and it got to the stage when I would come home and spend every evening adding and adding to the site. Just a year ago we moved all of CollegeBoysLive to a brand new house, going from 800 sq feet to about 4500 sq feet, adding in a massive pool in a much bigger house that's on a lake in a half million dollar neighbourhood. I've totally rebuilt the site with a whole new layout, new computers and new cameras. We wanted to use technology which was way ahead of every other site that's out there, so we developed our own system which now gives us 8 pictures a second, and were we to need it, up to 15 pictures a second. There's great satisfaction in working on such a successful site. We've manage to keep many of our original members, and the number of people who come to CollegeBoysLive has gone up and up. It's like a rollercoaster ride with all the ups and downs, but it does kind of take over my life. I work on CBL 7 days a week from the moment I get up in the morning to the moment I go to bed. OutUK: So how many cameras do you have now in the house?

Zac: Currently we have 24 cameras in the house including one for the hottub in the garden, one on the patio, all the bedrooms and bathrooms, as well as the chatroom, lounge, kitchen and workout room. Some of the cameras can be controlled by you and there's audio feeds available from many of the rooms too.

OutUK: How does it feel, knowing that you are on show all the time you are in the house? Zac: You really just get used to it. It's really weird because once, a year or so ago we had a piece of equipment break which meant that we were not connected to the Internet for about a day, and it actually felt weird. The guys were wondering around moaning "Nobody can see us!!!" You really get so used to it, you don't really notice the cameras are there. OutUK: Do you ever find it off-putting. If you've brought a guy back or something?
Zac: Generally you may find the other person is a bit nervous, or it can go the other way and they can love it. I always tell them what to expect, and some of them get off on the idea. I have a boyfriend now, Jonathan, who lives in the house with me, and he was a bit freaked out by it all at first but now he loves being in front of the cams.
OutUK: How difficult is it to find the guys for the cam? Zac: Yes it is difficult. I am not just looking for a roommate, it's much more than that. It has to be someone who is cute and looks good on camera. That's the first concern, but then you have to consider that we all live here. It's not like going into work, and not getting on with someone there, we have to share the house with each other, so we have to get on. They have to be someone with a good personality who will fit in. We go into chatrooms on the net and tell people what we a looking for and get the people who respond to fill out a questionnaire. It's really detailed and has about 20 questions, which is more to make them really think about what it would be like to do this. We have to know what they would do if they got into the house and found out that they didn't like it. We would much rather they changed their mind before they arrived than after they got in, because once they are in we take loads of pictures, and modify all the web pages. If they didn't like it then and moved out it would be a lot of wasted work.
OutUK: And have people stayed for a long time? Zac: Yeah, most have stayed. A couple have moved out as they have found a new boyfriend and moved in with them, or have moved away for work reasons, one or two got bored, and one or two found they really didn't like it, so moved out.

Currently there are five guys in the house full time. Apart from Zac, there's Chad, Patrick, Kris and Zac's boyfriend Jonathan. The two of them met in a local gay club in Orlando, and when Zac brought Jonathan to the house for the first time he says he was "shocked, and somewhat scared". Jonathan: At first I didn't want to show my body on there, but now I have got used to it. It's nice having people watching you, somehow you are never home alone. I love the interaction with all the other guys online. There's always someone to talk to, and you find that you have friends out there, even if we have never actually met them. It's kind of interesting and I get guys to send me pictures of themselves and sometimes they ask for photos of me too. People often ask me to get naked, and if I feel I want to then I do. It depends on my mood. Most nights I do tend to take everything off for at least half an hour or so when I am in the chatroom. If I got naked everytime someone asked me to I would never be wearing any clothes, as people chat to us all day and night. It really doesn't bother me any more being naked or jacking off on cam if that's what people want me to do.
The best thing about it is that there are people out there who see you on the cam and fantasise about you. They think that there is a chance for them to get off with one of the guys in the house, so they get really flirty with you. I had really low self-esteem before I moved in here, and now it's gone sky high.
Chad: I've only just moved in here and I sometimes think this is a strange thing to do, chatting to people you have never met. I like the friendship between all the guys and with the members online too. I took to the getting naked part really well and didn't really have a problem about it. It's no big deal for me to take all my clothes off, in fact I rather like it. The comments that you get from people are fun too. Sometime if you get someone being bitchy to you, the other guys stand up for you, or you get members who pull them apart and look out for you. I like the fact that sometimes people recognise me, and tell me that they think I'm really hot. It puts you in a really good mood for the rest of the day.

There have been well over 20 guys pass through CollegeBoysLive since it started, and some of the house's previous occupants have been talking about their experiences in front of the cams. Steven is between jobs, Matty works in the furniture department of a local stationery store, Chris is a hairdresser and lived in the house with his boyfriend Tim, and two former camguys Charles and John have all shared their stories. We found out what life was like for them all, and what attracted them to CollegeBoysLive. OutUK: What's it like to be on camera 24 hours a day? Steven: It's actually quite flattering, knowing that at any given moment somebody is watching you. They watch you sleep, iron clothes, cook, or take a shower. I mean it's really flattering, and I suppose I'm an attention getting person, but it's really cool. Occasionally I feel I want to get away, but that's what the front door is for, you leave the house. Everybody needs to get away from it all at sometime, and you come back to it when you feel you are able to handle it once again. OutUK: How long do people watch you sleep for? Steven: Well I don't know, but they do watch. They tell me in the chat that they've been watching and that I look really cute when I'm asleep. There's a lot of foot fetish people out there too, and they sit there watching and waiting for you to move and your feet to pop out from under the covers, so I don't know. I suppose it depends on their patience. On a Thursday we have a foot fetish night now, when one of the cameras is pointed towards our feet all of the time, and we are asked to wiggle our toes or show people the bottoms of our feet. I don't really get it, but I do what they ask.
	OutUK: Do you like the adulation? Matty: Yes sure … LOL. That's one of the things that got me into the house because I like to show off. I like the idea of people watching me when I jack, although they've never seen me in action as I've never brought anyone back here for that.
Chris: I like the attention too. I am an attention whore, that's all there is to it. I am a big Leo, and I am a big ham. That's the main reason why I do this. I like to make people happy and I guess this kind of makes people happy. There are times when I feel I would rather not have the camera on me, but mostly it feels so natural, that I completely forget about it. Steven: I like the interaction on a personal level. I like the fact that they can see you, but you can't see them, and it always makes it fun. You don't care what they are like physically because you get to know them on a different level. I met a couple of people at the recent Disney Gay Days, we had put out on the site that we would be there in a specific location, and some people came along and met us. A lot of them just sit they watching but don't ever chat, and some others take part in the chat and have talked to us on the phone, and they are just some of best people I've talked to. You can get up in the morning and walk in the kitchen, and look at the monitor only to see ten different people saying "Hi", and you don't get that normally. That's really cool, and makes you feel good. OutUK: How do you approach the chatroom. Is it the home work you haven't done for three weeks or the focal point of the day? Steven: It depends on what you mood is on that day. If you are in a really horrible mood then it can be difficult. I've just got over some serious mental stress, and at that time chat for me was a trial. I didn't want to be in that chair in front of loads of people being asked 20 million questions. On most days now though I really enjoy it. I want to know what going on in people's lives and they want to know what's going on in mine. Matty: I get a lot of people asking how my day went at work and stuff like that. It's difficult sometimes because you can have a load of questions thrown at you all at the same time, all on different subjects. You can lose the plot very easily if you walk away from the screen for more than a minute or two. We have a lot of new members coming in, and they always want to know about our body. That can get a bit annoying as they constantly ask. The big question is, if you are wearing something, and they want you to take it off. I don't usually take it off if they ask, I do it when I feel like it. Sometimes I'll do a porn show when I'm in the chat, I don't have a problem doing it, I just want to do it of my own free will and not at their demand. I normally prefer to get myself off on the bed rather than in the chat, but I realise people really want to see me do it. OutUK: Is that the norm, does everyone get off on camera?
	Matty: No actually I'm the only one who used to jack in the chatroom, but nowadays Chris likes to do all sorts of things with Tim. I like to jack in the morning, and once I answered the door naked whilst I was doing it. People know what they are coming into when they come here, and they don't have a problem with it.
OutUK: I suppose some people must think that they own you, as they can see you all the time, even when you are asleep? Zac: Yes you sometimes get that problem on the chat side, when they say "I've paid my membership, I want you to get naked, and have sex". We have to explain that they are looking at our lives, and that this is not a sex site. For two hours a day each of us talk with people online, but that doesn't mean that we are puppets who do everything that we are told. There are a lot of sex sites that will do that, but we are somewhat different. OutUK: But it must get a problem if 4 or 5 or 6 times a night someone says "Get your shorts off"? Zac: Oh yeah, it happens, and you just get used to handling it. And sometimes you do get your shorts off. It all depends on how we feel, and the way in which people ask you. It would be more of a problem I suppose if they never asked, or told you to put them back on! Chris: I think they see me get off enough that they really don't bug me too much. It doesn't bother me if they want to see my arse, or something like that, but I haven't really had anybody ask me to do something I didn't want to, or be too forceful with me. I suppose I am so giving, and I do my shows most mornings, when I have sex with Tim. As far as jacking during the chat it's not something I do every night, or would want to. Typically I am so busy doing other things, I don't want to jack. Tim and I organise ball shaving nights and things like that, because as much as I like being in front of the cameras I don't like to get into heavy and detailed chat conversations. I don't really like to reveal much about myself, as I think it makes me look a bit boring. OutUK: You say you put on a show with Tim, but it's for real isn't it?

Chris: Oh yes, Tim and I are for real. We like being watched, we are very voyeuristic people. We are not going to move the cameras so you can get the very best possible views, but we are happy to have them there so you can watch us and get your rocks off. I think he and I are the only ones to have actual sex whilst in the chat, we like to stop the chat halfway and go at it.
OutUK: What's the reaction of people when you do that? Chris: You know, I'm so busy at the time … LOL. I am sure they are saying, move the camera a little lower or something, but I'm really focussed on other things. We have a lot of sex first thing in the morning, I guess we are re-energised then. OutUK: And do you still do it if there are other guys in the room? Chris: Oh we really don't care. If we are horny and we want each other right now, we just go at it, and if whoever is in the room doesn't want to watch it, well they can leave. Most of the time they are asleep so it doesn't bother them. OutUK: What do you like about being on CollegeBoysLive? Zac: Well it's great because you get a lot of people talking about their coming out issues and stuff like that, they talk through their problems and often people in the chatroom try and help each other. The bad side is that sometimes people are totally fake and try and lead you on. We had one guy who said he was dying of AIDS and we spent a lot of time with him, even called him several times on the phone, and he turned out to be totally fake. But that's unusual.
We all have a following of certain people who like to come on and chat when we are on and maybe the others aren't. We quite often chat to people privately online, or talk with them on the phone, and then you also have a few fans who are obsessed with each of us, and may change their work schedules around when we are on line, or when we get up or stuff like that. That's a little unusual though.
Charles: I like the fact that there is never a dull moment, and if you want a dull moment, you don't have to be here. I like chatting to people, it's just fun entertainment, and I like to be at the centre of it. CollegeBoysLive really has changed my life because the very first kiss between John and I was on the chatcam. We had a lot of people on the site that would help the relationship and be really supportive, but there would also be a few others who'd try and start a fight. It was kinda unusual to start a relationship in front of the cameras, and let everyone watch it grow. OutUK: Weren't you ever shy? Charles: When I first came in to the house I was the most shy person you can get. It took me a month to get comfortable enough in front of the camera to even remove my boxers. It was really weird, I was never much of an exhibitionist and it kind of freaked me out, the fact that anyone could see me at any moment. Showers were particularly difficult to deal with at first you know. I wasn't very comfortable with it, but then it grows on you and you get to not notice the cameras after a while. One of the funny things was that John and I would have sex, and then we'd come back into the living and scroll back on the chat to see a commentary on what we'd been up to. People quite often used to hold a debate on what position we were in, or what we were actually doing, and quite often they'd give us marks out of ten. Some would say "that was a really great job", and we used to think, well that was really just for us not for everyone watching. For us it was just a thing to laugh at, but for some of the people watching it could get very serious. Often some people would discuss who was top, and who was bottom and what should happen next, and who should do what to the other. It made for excellent after sex reading. John: I too had some reservations about all of this at first. A friend I was living with came across the site and said he was interested in moving in, and I told him that there was no way I was going to let him do that. I thought it was just a sleazy whorehouse kinda thing and it actually turned out that it wasn't. I came to visit the house, and came to see the guys here a couple of times and I thought it was kinda cool. OutUK: I suppose a lot of people do think it is a "sleazy whorehouse kinda thing"?

	John: It's not. It's a house with a bunch of guys living here, with cameras and microphones. That's what it is, and all it is. I think something like this would take off great in the UK, we do have quite a few members that are from the UK, but it can be a little difficult for them with the 5 hour time difference. I think a UK cam house would be a good thing, providing you got the right mix of people.
OutUK: Getting the right people and how well you all get on must be a major issue here? Matty: Yeah, we all bitch at each other all of the time, that's the normal thing with all roommates. But normally when I am in a crabby mood I will go in my room and sit at my computer, and people know that when I am at my computer I don't want to join in. They leave me alone. OutUK: It's very much a 24 hour a day house, with people in and out the whole time, does that make it very exhausting? Chris: Oh I would say yes. Every since I have been here I really find I don't have time to do much else. I revolve my life around getting here, doing my thing, and as far as personal projects are concerned it's really quite hard to focus on them. When I wake up in the morning at about 9 or 9.30, I like to wake up Tim in more ways than one particularly if I am feeling horny, and sometimes we are then at it so much it makes us late for work, and so we have to have a very quick shower and get to work in a rush. By the time we are home in the evening we have the chat to do, more sex and then it's off to bed. OutUK: Do you go out a lot? Matty: No, I normally stay home, type things on the computer, watch TV or do anything relaxing. If there's someone to go and hang out with I do that, but I am really a homeboy. OutUK: What's it like when you step outside, and get away from the cameras. Steven: It's strange cause I go to other people's houses, and I am constantly looking for the cameras in their house! It's quite funny really. If people come here it's fun though.
	People always want to know where they can stand or where they can be where they can't be seen, or which room it is where they can't be heard. After a while they get used to it, and some of them just love it. Like my boyfriend Jamie, when he came over, he was all about it, he loved it. He tried to push me out of chat and take over. I wasn't having that!

Getting down a bit

December 10th 2007
Well hello cbl hope all is well with you all...me well all is going great so far..today sunda will mark mine and ross 7th day together as boyfriends and we still havent killedother lol....umm wow lots has gone on this week from a lil drama on clays behalf and the drama of chad leaving cbl...well lets star witha alil backreound on what happened with clay and i....well to make it shor he had said somethings on his podcast that wernt all that polite persay..so i went ahead and retaliated on my podcast...things such as mine and robbs relationship was going to end is never going to work and that basicly im wasting my time...i went ahead and let him know that the only reason things like this were said was because he was a lil jelouse of me and robb cause as u all know clay had a thing for me so we went off on each other but you know what we have resolved it and ow we are in good standing with eachother...robb and I are doin great this week i went to tampa and i will be here for abit and it is goin g great me and robb are getting closer and a lot more intimate with eachother i have learned alot about robb as he did with me...i know that if we both put our efforts fourth things will be good in the long run... now the story with chad is that well he was on drugs and had to move out because of it...i only hope and wish him the best out of life and i pray that he seeks help soon ... i have fam that have and are still going through this and its not pretty i only hope that chad will get smart and get his act together before its too late.. soo its a possibilaty that i mike will be staying at the tampa house on a perm basis...we will see how the next 2 weeks turn out for rob and i... depending on our status the move will be perm...in other news i MISSS JONATHAN sooo much hes luike my big bro and i cant wait to see him again....JONATHAN I LOVE YOU BITCH!!!!!....umm let me see what else well weve been having to get aroun the city on cabs its not all that fun and very expensive but hey ya gotta do what ya gotta do hehe..for the most part my week has gone smoothe and very well.... i love u all and i hope that all your xmas wishes will if not already come true i love you all.. have a great week...MMMUUUAAAHHH!!! yours always and forever MIKE
December 17th 2007
Hi its me again....welcome to another exciting edition of the life of michael lopez.........ok were to beguin..umm lets see well this week i was over in Tampa...with my man robb.. i heart him!!!!! it was actually retty fun im not gonna lie...i felt lke the lil house on the prairie...lol...i cooked and cleand and lots of SEX>>>lol...chats went amazing im actually thinkin i love it there...its kinda remote but i can live with that ya know..lots of cab rides to and from the liquer store hehe...well ya know i am with robb..umm lets see what else went on..umm oh we went to riches party on saturday it was actually fun and not muh drama at all...we ate we drank and had some good times....robb and i went to a straight bar that i love and hes not to fond but we went anyway and had lots of fun..we drank lots there to..notice a pattern of drinkin here...good cause i did...hehe but who says alil drinkin never hurt any one. but ya know u only live once so we actually had a blast that night..and wo as im typing i just got an amazing blowjob from my robbie aahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!lol...any way as you all may know im actually moving to the tampa house so im now a cbl-tampa boy.....YEAH!!!! anyway i hope to see you all there i love you all and i'll talk to you all very soon.....kisses to all..MUAH!!!!

Stay Blessed always, Michael!!!!!
December 26th
Its Christmas!!! wow what a great time of year for friends and family to come together and share....This is the time of year we all hope and wish will just be perfect, all grudges go away and all mistakes will be placed aside....well unfortunately this is not my story this is story were one gets pushed to the side and forgotten by all who once loved him.. where a mother forgets a child and a brother leaves another brother behind in battle...were a father lies to himself and leads a son on to a path not so clear....who is this a bout you ask...well take a guess, now its not all bad because at the end of this saga of heart break and pain there is a newfound love that surpasses all judgment and hate...a love like never before.. he has come from a far off place and has stopped in my path.. he sees my distress and hears my cry.. he stops and says darling boy why do you cry take my hand it will a be alright, i look up and say ok lets go away and ride all day and all night.. we eventually get tired and hungry, as the day weres on we also get famished as well as parched so we stop at place very dear to his heart.. The place were his mother welcomes her son and his perfect stranger with open arms... I see the love in her eyes as her son says mother I LOVE HIM this is the one....as a tear falls from my face i know id rather be here then any other place.. You see Christmas is all about love, love is the beginning and end of all we do, love lifts us up were we belong, all you need is love... So no matter where you are or what your going through just love and even if for a moment your minds drifts off to a fairytale land then it was all worth that... This Christmas just remember the important things in life don't dwell in the past and love now and forever more... You only live once in this world why spend it with tears of sorrow that stain your face, why not have tears of joy that light it up with grace... we live we love and we die...lets love!!!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!!!
FOREVER YOURS MIKE

Its December

WOW WOW WOW...what a week ive had..but im sure you know that..hehe lets see were to begin.
Well lets star with the obvious, me and Mr.Cosell aka rob.. We started off with a good week, i mean things were going well then i had word that a new app was coming to town.. I admit I was a little worried..but got passed it with a promise from rob himself that i have nothing to worry about...oops well I guess vodka dose change the minds of people..and my gut feeling was actually correct..as u well know when new app aka chris came abord the first night went well no screwing around on robbs part but then as the sun came up and a new day began in the tampa house things startred to abrew in me telling me to be prepaired for something to come ..and as the day went by my feeling grew stronger and stronger, again with a promise and a lil convo with robb my nerves calmed down..well the sunwent down in tampa and i guess the liquer came out simotainiously and as i was in my chat i noticed my numbers dropped in logged in memebers so i decided to see were thwy all went and wow to my suprise tampa had 140...got alil nervous but i put it behind me and went about my chat till all of the sudden it was quiet for bout 1 min then i got word that there is something going on in tampa that i wouldnt like..... then it all fell in to place..what i had worried about all day was actually happening...and so it begins..

My lil robbie got a lil intoxicated and well, let his hormones rise to the occasion if you know what i mean..and from what i know app (aka chris) was having a blast literaly...my mind was racing and my heart was shot..yes I admit i was upset hurt but honestly not suprised at all... I knew something like this would happen.. I decided I wasnt going to dwell on the situation and go out and meet my good friend the goose..AKA Vodka..hehe... But before I left to drink away I just wanted to hear what Mr. Cosell had to say for himself, so I called him up and asked what was up..of course he knew what I ment by that so we just jumped rite in and what was said was that it was retaliation from what I had done the week prior..ok I have to admit I was wrong for what I did but I was under the impression that it was over and fogotten but apparently it wasent..now I did understand that part but still wasnt a logical explanation cause last time I check im not in middle school to be playing these type of games so I just couldnt here him anymore I was soo over it and just hung up and left...With drinkies to come and lots of cigs my nite was set in have fun mode....and thats what I did oh god did I ever..

It started off with triple vodka and cranberry then after about 4 of those we went on to patron shots...yeah I know crazyness.. then on to our trusty yet tasty friend corona and lime... by the time i was done with my drinks I was lit....wow my ass was dancing up a storm I had so many women on me...I made out with like 5 chicks and maneged to get a girls number..boy what a shock shes gonna have when she finds out im gay lol...well the night came to a close and its time to say good bye to fun and welcome the drama that was waiting for me back at home...so i get home totaly trashed as I stumble up the steps to my bathroom i pray to the God that is the tolet...and im there just prasing the shit out of it..I finaly manage to get up and lay on the bed ..my god did my body ever hurt... I woke up the next morning with the biggest hang over in my life...my head was pounding my tummy was not feeling so well and to top it off lil robbie was getting ready to star in a porno for epic men..yes the same one he said he wasnt goin todo..but as always things change with time..oh 8 hours to be exact but whos counting heh..

I decided to not pay mind to what was going on in the trampa house and went about my day thinking and cleaning and hoping the hangover goes away...well eventually it did and im all better now.. im over al the drama and now well this may come as a shock to some of you...but robbie and i spoke tonite and we have decided to put this past us...i foragve him and were actually good now...we have commited to eachother and as of today Mike and robb are dating...yes i know what you all maybe thinking but you know what its my heart and it my life ill do with it as i wish...And yes mabe I will get hurt but whos to say I wont...let life be and go with your gut..how can one grow as a person with out going through heartach and struggle...how can one go about life with out ever knowing what it feels like to love and be loved in return...life is about living it and loveing all that comes with it...Our Hevanly Father gave me one shot at this life thing and you know what im gonna live it to the fullest even if that means im gonna hurt and fall down over and over again atleast i can say i lived...

Yours always, Michael John-Tristan Lopez
AKA MIKEY BITCHES!!!!!
MUAH!

when I met Robb

Well wow were to begin..this week most def took a lil turn around, for the most part it went well...saturday was amazing fun, we went to tampa and had a blast at G-Bar...i got alil tipsy lol....did some cray stuff that im not so proud of...gosh waht a lil alcohol can do to a girl..lol..let me elaborate.

lets start off with saturday, ugh well like i said before i did get a lil drunk did some stupid things like i probobly made out with half the bar...no honestly im not gonna lie it was like no less then 20 guys...eeww i know gross....but hey they were cute..hehe..oh girl then this god came up to me named sebastion...ugh this guy was built like a efin fock dude...his body was killer his hair blond and long with the most amazing blue eyes very poster boy..so we were like making out and what ev then he asked me to go outside with him to smoke, me not realizing that its a bar meaning u can smoke inside..lol..but i played along so we went out and started walking, he took me to this back ally type thing and very bluntly asked me to pull my pants down so that he can give me head, at this point im like so trashed and he was sooooo hot i was like...k dont gotta ask me twice..hehe no im not a whore...well maybe when im drunk..haha j/k..so then as he was doing his deed for mankind he asked me have sex out there, i was like bitch im drunk but not stupid i aint doing that with u out here first of all and second umm no protection..i will never be to drunk to not use a condom...so then he said ok then kept goin at my pice like it was a lolipop lol...afteward we went back in gave me his number and that was the last i saw of him that night..so the night came to an end we were all happy and drunk as hell, then we went home...thats were my other story begins..

Mr. robb....wow were to start with him...well after him passing out and vomiting on my lap mind u that sooo should have been a huge turn off for me, for some reason i still ened up sleeping with him..god it was pretty amazing not gonna lie, for a drunk boy the kid can go..hehe...hes a very nice guy with a great personality great smile and totaly hott...hes a verey funny guy and likes to have fun i think thats why i think im kinda attractted to him..he came back to orlando with us..hmm dont know what happened there we just kinda clicked and there has been lots of flirting between us and of course the whole bj in chat and another nite of pretty much hott ass sex its been a fun week so far..lol but i know its all just for fun so im just taking it all in now...literaly haha..

I realy have no big issues with any one in the house, i mean marshall realy keeps to himself in the sence he dousnt realy expose himself to drama, and thats a good thing makes him so much easier to talk to... i love talking to him he's so smart and funny and witty...hes a cool kat i think we will get a long fine..he has a lot of wisdom for a guy his age u know he can realy hold up a convo and realy give u some good advice...oh and mr clay well u know hes a cool guy aswell i mean sometimes he can be alil to cocky and the one thing that pisses me off the most in this world is efin cockyness god it makes me mad...he comes off somtimes as this guy that thinks he kinda deserves everything and realy dousnt have to work for it..trust me it gets very irritating..i love him to death but has to know when to keep his mouth shut and just let other talk...any way hes a cool guy but i just know that one day i might just snapp and it ait gonna be pretty...i hate drama and he has drama tatood on him..ha...I love me some chazzy boy..hes such a great friend and a sweetheart...hes one of those guys that u can trust and know u have a genuine friend in him..hes funny and smart and spunky very cool kat..now to my bosses..

Zaccie i love him hes a cool guy very down to earth and funny and very loving...he know how to run this place and he douse a damn good job at it..im glad to have him and to a part of this with him..and last but not least Johnathan hes amazing... i look at him and i see my older brother hes soo much like him the way he looks and talks and his witty personality...i like him alot and i know that well get along well...my older brother and i dont talk anymore cause he found out i am gay so having jonny around realy bringsme comfort in a way and it just lets me feel that im taliking to chris my bro...i know hes not my brother but i like to think that at times knowing that i can confide in him and that he wont judge me on my lifestyle or my actions..i guess having people who care about me realy makes this whole cbl an expirence worth living..

well untill next week..muah!!! heart yall lots... yours Michael..aka mikey!
November 26th 2007
Well bois its me again and boy did i have a week...my week was ok in some parts an i also had some not so ok parts...but what ev whats a week with out some self infickted drama huh....i really dont know ehy i do these things to my self u know...i try to be normal and just live my life and it just brings me hurt... i mean dont get me wrong i do have my share of happy and fun moments but it seems that there are more times in my life were im down and hurt...well i guess ur all wondering what the hell im talking about huh..well heres the story of my week....

Well my week started off fine ..we had an event at tampa and it went amazing this was the day i met robb as u may all know the trangle that is robb.... but for the most part we had a great week togather...we had fun and he just made me feel so good and happy u know iv been in fatuated with people but this time it wasnt that it was alil more...i mean hes is deff someone i want in my life and now that its done it soo has me at a whoe...lets jump to turkeyday... the day tampa chad arrives... now dont get me wrong i like chad hes a cool kat and a great person to talk too and actually ive spoken to his mom a few times shes such a cool person...i can deff see were chad gets his cheery personality...but any way robb decides he want to test the waters with chad and u know im not one to beg so what ever ur heart and head tell u to do then u do it...sowhat ev im fine...then we have an amazing meal time... i get a lil wasted ....lol hey whats a lil turkey without some alcohol...hehe.that night at the club robb and i kinda took out the stress of not being able to have close contact cause of chad so we were making out and dancing having a great time... i knew it was only a thing but you know i just took all i could have...well that night when we get home... im sure all of u remember that night... but to those that dont ...they kinda had a big fight and decided tjhat mabe they wouldnt work out so here i am in the middle of this shit and what do i do...well i take robb and he sleeps in my room...its like nomatter what he douse i just dont care... i take him back...any wayfor the rest of the week he sleeps with me...now lets foward to this saturday at boxxers....

Wow ummm we honestly had a blast...johnathan and i had such a grat time together we were cracking up bout everything.... We had the worst midori sour ever but we quickly put our heads together and decided to go for the light king of beers....Bud Lite but with a lil gay twist to it...just and lemon and its the most amazing beer ever...so we were kicking those back like shots soon enuff we got lil yipsy lol...well a lotabit tipsy but we had fun...that club is soooo pretty...dancers were hott...well for the most part...could do with out some of the faces....lol but we cant all be perfect..hehe..it was soo hilarious the dancers were dancing up on me and johnathan that nite...crotch in face and everything i had my lil peek-a-boos now and a gain...hahaha johnathans hair was all kinds of HOTT!! honestly his hair was fierce...and the bois were not shy to dance and look him twice or three or four...hehe...oh god can we talk bout how hot the co owner was....ugh! ugh! drop dead beautiful face....arms and chest built like heaven....damn the things that man could do to me...lol...oh wow how can forget the imfamos stripper dude... honestly his face needed some major reconstuctive work but his body was killer hottt so i guess he had that going for him....(note to self buy brown bags)..hehe but we all saw how chad took him in lol...i love him hes sooo cute and has lots to learn...but all in all...he definatly fits in... all he needs is to be a lil smarter in sum aspects of life then he'll have it going good for him.. i see a good future for that boy if he takes care of himself...well now its time to leave the club and well we get to the tampa house and as were leaving the house i kiss robb nite nite and that ill c him wednesday..then well i guess he was a lil hammered cause right after i left to orlando him and chad fought for a bit but then made up fast cause they sure had fun times in the bedroom...but any way what ev....i guess im over it...

Last night we had a talk robb and i had a talk and decided to be alil more involved with eachother and that made me happy...but then i got drunk in the club and i mean drunk as hell and well i got home and me and clay kinda fooled around for a sec but we both stopped it and it didnt get far at all... i mean we didnt even kiss it was more something that happend out of drive u know when ur drunk shit all the sdden happens but i guess it wasnt al good with robb not that i expected it to be but i just didnt think he would react the way he did...know that were are human and make mistakes especialy under the influence of alcohol... he of all people should under stand..but i guess not....i feel sooo bad for what happend and im deeply sorry i only wish he could forgive me and understand that i still feel the same way bout him even more then i did before....clay and i are roommates and nothing wiill ever happen between us... i dont like him that way....idk i guees we cant always have what we want... im sorry

Well im gonna wrap this up and say thank u all for listening to me rant and rave bout this stuff...but i guess my heart is just blah rite now...well i hope you all have a great week...and love to all....MMMMMMMUUUUUUAAAHH!!!!!

Yours always, Michael