when I met Robb

Well wow were to begin..this week most def took a lil turn around, for the most part it went well...saturday was amazing fun, we went to tampa and had a blast at G-Bar...i got alil tipsy lol....did some cray stuff that im not so proud of...gosh waht a lil alcohol can do to a girl..lol..let me elaborate.

lets start off with saturday, ugh well like i said before i did get a lil drunk did some stupid things like i probobly made out with half the bar...no honestly im not gonna lie it was like no less then 20 guys...eeww i know gross....but hey they were cute..hehe..oh girl then this god came up to me named sebastion...ugh this guy was built like a efin fock dude...his body was killer his hair blond and long with the most amazing blue eyes very poster boy..so we were like making out and what ev then he asked me to go outside with him to smoke, me not realizing that its a bar meaning u can smoke inside..lol..but i played along so we went out and started walking, he took me to this back ally type thing and very bluntly asked me to pull my pants down so that he can give me head, at this point im like so trashed and he was sooooo hot i was like...k dont gotta ask me twice..hehe no im not a whore...well maybe when im drunk..haha j/k..so then as he was doing his deed for mankind he asked me have sex out there, i was like bitch im drunk but not stupid i aint doing that with u out here first of all and second umm no protection..i will never be to drunk to not use a condom...so then he said ok then kept goin at my pice like it was a lolipop lol...afteward we went back in gave me his number and that was the last i saw of him that night..so the night came to an end we were all happy and drunk as hell, then we went home...thats were my other story begins..

Mr. robb....wow were to start with him...well after him passing out and vomiting on my lap mind u that sooo should have been a huge turn off for me, for some reason i still ened up sleeping with him..god it was pretty amazing not gonna lie, for a drunk boy the kid can go..hehe...hes a very nice guy with a great personality great smile and totaly hott...hes a verey funny guy and likes to have fun i think thats why i think im kinda attractted to him..he came back to orlando with us..hmm dont know what happened there we just kinda clicked and there has been lots of flirting between us and of course the whole bj in chat and another nite of pretty much hott ass sex its been a fun week so far..lol but i know its all just for fun so im just taking it all in now...literaly haha..

I realy have no big issues with any one in the house, i mean marshall realy keeps to himself in the sence he dousnt realy expose himself to drama, and thats a good thing makes him so much easier to talk to... i love talking to him he's so smart and funny and witty...hes a cool kat i think we will get a long fine..he has a lot of wisdom for a guy his age u know he can realy hold up a convo and realy give u some good advice...oh and mr clay well u know hes a cool guy aswell i mean sometimes he can be alil to cocky and the one thing that pisses me off the most in this world is efin cockyness god it makes me mad...he comes off somtimes as this guy that thinks he kinda deserves everything and realy dousnt have to work for it..trust me it gets very irritating..i love him to death but has to know when to keep his mouth shut and just let other talk...any way hes a cool guy but i just know that one day i might just snapp and it ait gonna be pretty...i hate drama and he has drama tatood on him..ha...I love me some chazzy boy..hes such a great friend and a sweetheart...hes one of those guys that u can trust and know u have a genuine friend in him..hes funny and smart and spunky very cool kat..now to my bosses..

Zaccie i love him hes a cool guy very down to earth and funny and very loving...he know how to run this place and he douse a damn good job at it..im glad to have him and to a part of this with him..and last but not least Johnathan hes amazing... i look at him and i see my older brother hes soo much like him the way he looks and talks and his witty personality...i like him alot and i know that well get along well...my older brother and i dont talk anymore cause he found out i am gay so having jonny around realy bringsme comfort in a way and it just lets me feel that im taliking to chris my bro...i know hes not my brother but i like to think that at times knowing that i can confide in him and that he wont judge me on my lifestyle or my actions..i guess having people who care about me realy makes this whole cbl an expirence worth living..

well untill next week..muah!!! heart yall lots... yours Michael..aka mikey!
November 26th 2007
Well bois its me again and boy did i have a week...my week was ok in some parts an i also had some not so ok parts...but what ev whats a week with out some self infickted drama huh....i really dont know ehy i do these things to my self u know...i try to be normal and just live my life and it just brings me hurt... i mean dont get me wrong i do have my share of happy and fun moments but it seems that there are more times in my life were im down and hurt...well i guess ur all wondering what the hell im talking about huh..well heres the story of my week....

Well my week started off fine ..we had an event at tampa and it went amazing this was the day i met robb as u may all know the trangle that is robb.... but for the most part we had a great week togather...we had fun and he just made me feel so good and happy u know iv been in fatuated with people but this time it wasnt that it was alil more...i mean hes is deff someone i want in my life and now that its done it soo has me at a whoe...lets jump to turkeyday... the day tampa chad arrives... now dont get me wrong i like chad hes a cool kat and a great person to talk too and actually ive spoken to his mom a few times shes such a cool person...i can deff see were chad gets his cheery personality...but any way robb decides he want to test the waters with chad and u know im not one to beg so what ever ur heart and head tell u to do then u do it...sowhat ev im fine...then we have an amazing meal time... i get a lil wasted ....lol hey whats a lil turkey without some alcohol...hehe.that night at the club robb and i kinda took out the stress of not being able to have close contact cause of chad so we were making out and dancing having a great time... i knew it was only a thing but you know i just took all i could have...well that night when we get home... im sure all of u remember that night... but to those that dont ...they kinda had a big fight and decided tjhat mabe they wouldnt work out so here i am in the middle of this shit and what do i do...well i take robb and he sleeps in my room...its like nomatter what he douse i just dont care... i take him back...any wayfor the rest of the week he sleeps with me...now lets foward to this saturday at boxxers....

Wow ummm we honestly had a blast...johnathan and i had such a grat time together we were cracking up bout everything.... We had the worst midori sour ever but we quickly put our heads together and decided to go for the light king of beers....Bud Lite but with a lil gay twist to it...just and lemon and its the most amazing beer ever...so we were kicking those back like shots soon enuff we got lil yipsy lol...well a lotabit tipsy but we had fun...that club is soooo pretty...dancers were hott...well for the most part...could do with out some of the faces....lol but we cant all be perfect..hehe..it was soo hilarious the dancers were dancing up on me and johnathan that nite...crotch in face and everything i had my lil peek-a-boos now and a gain...hahaha johnathans hair was all kinds of HOTT!! honestly his hair was fierce...and the bois were not shy to dance and look him twice or three or four...hehe...oh god can we talk bout how hot the co owner was....ugh! ugh! drop dead beautiful face....arms and chest built like heaven....damn the things that man could do to me...lol...oh wow how can forget the imfamos stripper dude... honestly his face needed some major reconstuctive work but his body was killer hottt so i guess he had that going for him....(note to self buy brown bags)..hehe but we all saw how chad took him in lol...i love him hes sooo cute and has lots to learn...but all in all...he definatly fits in... all he needs is to be a lil smarter in sum aspects of life then he'll have it going good for him.. i see a good future for that boy if he takes care of himself...well now its time to leave the club and well we get to the tampa house and as were leaving the house i kiss robb nite nite and that ill c him wednesday..then well i guess he was a lil hammered cause right after i left to orlando him and chad fought for a bit but then made up fast cause they sure had fun times in the bedroom...but any way what ev....i guess im over it...

Last night we had a talk robb and i had a talk and decided to be alil more involved with eachother and that made me happy...but then i got drunk in the club and i mean drunk as hell and well i got home and me and clay kinda fooled around for a sec but we both stopped it and it didnt get far at all... i mean we didnt even kiss it was more something that happend out of drive u know when ur drunk shit all the sdden happens but i guess it wasnt al good with robb not that i expected it to be but i just didnt think he would react the way he did...know that were are human and make mistakes especialy under the influence of alcohol... he of all people should under stand..but i guess not....i feel sooo bad for what happend and im deeply sorry i only wish he could forgive me and understand that i still feel the same way bout him even more then i did before....clay and i are roommates and nothing wiill ever happen between us... i dont like him that way....idk i guees we cant always have what we want... im sorry

Well im gonna wrap this up and say thank u all for listening to me rant and rave bout this stuff...but i guess my heart is just blah rite now...well i hope you all have a great week...and love to all....MMMMMMMUUUUUUAAAHH!!!!!

Yours always, Michael